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For all you loyal readers!

”四郎，那年杏花微雨，你说你是果郡王，也许从一开始便都是错的。“

—— 熹贵妃 《甄嬛传》

有些事，就是过了一万年也不会变

如今，事过境迁，已淡忘了从前的执着、淡忘了为何要执着。只是谁又晓得，每每外头飘着细雨、每每那熟悉的旋律在耳边响起，我仍怀念当时的美好、当时的不顾一切。

想了又想，还是觉得一切的发生都很值得。即便没有渴望的结局。

Almost a year later, resentment falls away and pity takes over- for the first time. Perhaps you can now understand my turmoil then, and feel just that pinch of regret. Perhaps you are now plugged into your earphones, losing yourself in music, wishing that none of it is real. Now your tears are falling, crystal-clear droplets of pity for yourself
of resentment towards reality

That's alright, let's call it quits.

After a reluctant (and at times, painful) void of-5? 6? years- I have finally gotten myself in the write frame of mind. (oh so punny! ha ha)

It is as tough as I had imagined it to be- there is no momentum, no flow, and often I stopped myself and wondered if this is worth any of my time at all?

It was the first time that warmth descended- laughter, chatter all around, surrounding us like a soft light would caress a halo. 

Time and again I had to remind myself (with some force) that life has been kind to send you guys to me. From that time on I needed no further affirmation or consideration: I am, indeed, unmistakably, irrefutably, blessed.