Telling others to "drop it" is so easy, but actually doing it for yourself is hard

Still, I'm glad you responded positively to my advice and have made up your mind to get over it 

Rooting for you always guuuuuurl 

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意

-Song that's been stuck in my head for most of the day, I'm not sure why 

when you listened and said

"damn nice"

I was surprised/ taken aback/ at a loss for words at that very moment, so I could only smile


I wonder if you could still remember that?

Just want you to know that, I'm thankful for and very touched by your affirmation
Till this very day


Funny how the little things you do always leave me so warmed up inside 
I shouldn't be feeling this way, but 

new song cover for 全世界伤心的人们 （其实不伤心也可以听啦）

HI!!!!!!! Finally did a song cover today (that I think I sound decent in but still far from perfect of course)

That's probably the last cover before the end of A's...... sooooooo please enjoy it (and don't miss my voice too much) (just kidding)

I know I keep saying how much I wish A's will end ASAP, but honestly the thought of being out of school with nothing to do scares me a little... It's like I may well just lose any kind of order in my life and let chaos take over... kinda thing

You don't understand, do you?

Have a good weekend! (or whatever that's left of it) xx

最亲爱的 最冷漠了

so full of feels for this song nowadays. It's funny because it only felt like I was feeling the song when the MV came out. Sooooo. MVs are really important. haha

Really thankful for little things in life, like a totally unanticipated message wishing me the best and asking me to upload more covers- haahahha that request made me smile yes I totally should will look into doing one on thursday-- these things give me strength, you have no idea how much their fill up my (otherwise relatively empty) heart with gratitude and warmth

Apart from that I've only just recently come to a realisation that with the passing of time, we really learn to care a little less (or maybe start to accept how things really are and hence, stop bothering ourselves about them.) So I believe that things will only get better from here

It's almost mid-week hang in there everyone!!!!!!!!!

Already frothing to the mouth with anticipation (HAHAHAHAH just got reminded of the time when I used this expression in my essay for blocks and tutor was like ???????!!! hahahahahahahahha) about the end of prelims. The mere thought of 10.30am tmr excites me. No, really. Even though technically it isn't the end of prelims and there are still MCQs to angst about but HEY. I'd gladly do MCQs all day err day (if you make me choose between those and open ended questions that is)

(I know there is no sane justification for my excitement about the end of prelims because something worse is coming up BUT JUST LET ME LIVE IN THE MOMENT OKAY)

Actually that's about it today's been a pretty good day

Confusion with a lot of some pain isn't the greatest feeling in the world

lol just a  random thought
if there were really a pill that could wipe all bad feelings and memories clean, I'd gladly take it

But again I think there would usually be a condition that comes with it? Like ummm. If you take it ALL your memories will be wiped clean. Or something like that. And you'll end up sadder because you can't remember a single thing from your life

Awwwww damn. Now that's really sad.

I guess the way to go is to live with it? Time will pass and what hurts at the moment will feel like nothing in time to come.

Once read this somewhere: "You don't stop loving someone, you simply learn to live without them."

Not saying that it's in any way relevant (maybe half of it. lol) But it's very inspiring (????? vocab bank running dry nowadays another thing I'm so sad about) because I feel pretty empowered when I read it? Probably why I could still remember it after so long (I can forget about things that I've said 3 seconds ago. Go figure) It's a little like, yeah, I'm going out to be my Miss Independent. That kinda feeling.

Most days when I'm not caught up in mind-numbing revision I just wish I could go back to those times when I didn't have to care about anything other than getting my hands on yet another Jacqueline Wilson novel (favourite childhood author EVER.) And ok, maybe I don't have to go waaaaaaaay back to those carefree primary school days. Maybe just. Those days when my heart didn't feel so empty half the time. (It's ironic. How's it possible that your heart could still feel so empty while it's being occupied??? *cue wrist-slitting music* )

Plus it's annoying when you start spending every spare moment you have wondering about things. It's like I've stopped giving myself love, stopped being productively idle with myself

Anyway, you could say that I really miss being me. Being with myself

Just gonna end this extremely pointless post with yet another something that I've read somewhere (sorta gathering dust in the dark recesses of my mind sooooo) : "Love yourself, you are all you've got."

So darn true

If I could go back in time I'd warn myself about you and perhaps prevent myself from ending up in this ridiculous but simultaneously, incredibly miserable situation 

However I still believe that all things happen for a reason. And after careful deliberation I realise that it wouldn't have happened if it were somebody else. So I guess this means something 

每一个人，都在等一个人。

my favourite song at the moment. Just can't get enough of the lyrics

最近常常想起沈佳宜在《那些年》里说的一句话：“人生本来就有很多事是徒劳无功的啊。“

不知为何，我对那句话的印象格外深刻。

也许是因为我可以体会到那句话的真实度…… 虽然不确定是否会有收获，但我们还是勇敢地面对每一次的试炼；诚恳、执着地爱着；不求回报、忘我地付出。

（我想看《等一个人咖啡》！！！！！！！！）

致青涩的我

Been looking through old photos a lot, basking in old but happy memories, taking multiple trips down the memory lane not because I have nothing better to do, but because I just feel like it

They make me smile so much, I'm not sure why nostalgia chooses to hit me at this point. Perhaps it's because subconsciously, I know that a chapter of my life is about to end and a new chapter is about to unfold (honestly I have never really thought of it that way. Really. But yeah. Subconsciousness) and I want to hold on to those memories, the past that shaped me into the person I am today. I don't want to forget who I was and who I am, no matter who I become in the near future.

It's sad that I've drifted apart from some of the people whom I used to be so close to, albeit for a short period of time. But I'll never forget the wonderful times we had together. Thank you for being part of those lovely memories that still tug at my heartstrings and make me smile so widely.

And to my secondary school-early J1 (??) self: I'm sorry for hating you so much. I'm sorry for not being appreciative, always finding fault and overwhelming you with harsh criticism. 如果时光可以倒流，我想对青涩的自己说：其实你笑的时候真的很美。能做最真实的自己就已经足够了。Looking back, I'm glad I found Blogilates & Bubz on YouTube when I was feeling the most vulnerable and insecure about who I am. Cassey taught me that healthy living & regular workouts aren't things that you do for the sake of vanity alone-- it is a lifestyle, a way of living, a way of feeling good. Nowadays, I find more reason to set time aside for working out because it is no longer about the number on the scale. It is about me. My health. My emotions.

Bubz taught me that happiness can be simple. To be kind to yourself and kind to others. To accept and love yourself for who you are, and do the same for people around you.


从”青涩”到"成人“， 从“懵懵懂懂”到“比较懂”，这路上虽然有苦涩，但也有满满的感动与感触…… 不管你是否已经离开、终究会选择远走，或者愿意为我而停留，我都衷心地感谢你曾在我的生命中留下了涟漪。不管是好是坏，一切都已成了过去，还是谢谢你让我长大了。

说了这么多，希望没闷死大家…… 有些话若现在不说，将来也许会淡忘

在找到答案之前，先听听文音的声音吧~~ 好好听

最近很认真地想了许多事情，却无法下一个坚定的结论。

应该成全谁的梦想？应该替谁着想？应该往哪走？

也许是我没事找事情让自己折腾。我也不太清楚了。

虽然清楚地知道自己想要什么、向往什么，却总是犹豫不决，因为…… 

有太多别的因素、事情需要考量。

讨厌自己三心二意，讨厌自己总拿不定主意，讨厌自己执着却缺乏勇气

（我怎么用中文打了一堆的字啊。我的天~ 不好意思啦。）