After about a million years

DEAR DEAD SPACE!!!!!!!!! MAMA IS BACK TO BRING YOU BACK TO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!

Hola everybody. I know I've vanished off the surface of the earth for quite some time already. My sincerest apologies.

I haven't been feeling well for quite some time, but I'm getting better. And today I seem to be in the mood to blog. So here I am.

FIRSTLY! VITAMIN B IS INSANELY IMPORTANT. If you happen to lack it or for some reason your body fails to absorb it, you'll be in deep trouble. Like what happened to me. Unpleasant things that may happen to you include dizziness & nausea, lack of appetite, general weakness, random tingling in arms & legs, visual disturbances, difficulty focusing your eyes, difficulty going to sleep, poor sleep quality, random tension headaches, random muscle aches, fatigue at random times of the day (especially after eating for me and it's really weird), depression, increased sensitivity to sunlight (I found that I couldn't focus on doing things in the morning/during noon, when the sun was shining super brightly), AND THE LIST GOES ON. Now you see how badly I was suffering. Thank goodness all that madness only lasted for about a week. It was enough to drive me crazy anyway. After a week of taking Vit B supplements from the doctor most of the symptoms disappeared, but I was still feeling tired. And I couldn't stomach anything other than porridge/fish/relatively tasteless stuff lolol. And my eyes were still giving me problems. But I was so relieved to be feeling normal again.

MORAL OF THE STORY=VITAMIN B IS INSANELY IMPORTANT EVERYBODY PLEASE TAKE CARE AND DON'T SCREW UP YOUR STOMACH LIKE I DID BECAUSE THE STOMACH PRODUCES SOMETHING THAT HELPS ABSORB VIT B WITHOUT VIT B YOU ARE AS GOOD AS DEAD

I think I'm turning into quite a hypochondriac. Like Mr. Woodhouse from Emma LOL. After that whole week of turmoil I really started to understand the importance of health (we often take it for granted don't we). And I admit health issues still scare the hell out of me. Haha.

-end of health rant EVERYBODY PLEASE TAKE CARE!-


Holidays are ending in about a month or so, and it'll be time to return to the place I dread most-- never mind that it's a different place & a different environment, what happens inside is equally terrifying and dreadful anyway. Sorry I don't mean to be such a mood dampener, for all you guys frothing to the mouth with anticipation about next year, but things like that just don't appeal to me. LE SIGHS.

Now that everything important is more or less over, I'm bored. So bored that I sometimes find myself at a loss/depressed (which I brush off as one of the lingering symptoms of Vit B deficiency)
I got to find some meaningful things to do, real soon.

xx

the winter skies were so blue, so blue

Hihihihihi I've made up my mind to update this dead space like finallyyyyyyyyyy

No pictures for this post (again) because I'm feeling lazy~ And for some reason I can't upload pics to FB from my ipod which is making me absolutely annoyed -_- Will do a proper pictures post when I'm too free/in a good mood/feeling like it!

Anyway.......... Life is not exactly very happening nowadays, I've been reading my chinese thriller/doing IM1/worrying about IM1/feeling frustrated at that hellhole which never fails to put me in such terrible situations despite my having graduated already/feeling my heart get heavier as I think about what next year will bring/randomly tidying my stuff to put my mind off things

It's funny how I'm feeling so burdened even though it's the holidays. A first definitely. People tell me not to think about things that have not happened yet, but I just can't help it, you know? Especially when we were told to sign up for the whatever week. I won't even get started on how annoyed I am about the fact that we start the school year about half a month before the others. Let's not talk about that. But signing up/registering/whatever they called it for that whatever week just pisses me off so bad ok I'm not coherent anymore let's drop this


For the sake of my mental health which I treasure so dearly I shall stop being so depressed and start thinking about unicorns and rainbows and fancy teacups

Till the next time
xx

We are young

Hiya this gonna be a pictureless post again cuz I'm lazy to load pictures from phone/ipod/camera

It's been a long day, and I'm dead beat.

Woke up at terrible terrible terrible inhumanly usual school time (5 freaking 45 AM) and went to school to sit for higher chinese o's. LE SIGHS. Of course I was just wondering what on earth I did to be subjected to this kind of torture AGAIN, after all that eoy drama, but well, everyone had to do it. Yay us. Anyway I'm insanely glad that everything is OVER and now I just need to party with IM1.With gusto.


~.~


Graduation happened, without much drama/interesting stories, but I had quite a lot of fun with B hobo-ing around Bugis looking at FRIVOLOUS STUFF and talking crap before grad night. Wheeee. AND BAM I'VE GRADUATED. Hell you don't know how long I've been waiting for THAT day to come. You don't.

Frivolous is now my new favourite word. Don't ask why.


Hmmmmmmm many stuff to do before Saturday arrives, so much to do & so little time but anyway, have a good holiday everyone! xx

Chilling

Holla! Happy Halloween guys~ (It's Halloween today right? Lol.)

Had a pretty awesome day today with P & G at Daisoooooooooo~~~~~ My absolute favourite shopping place because I can always go and buy loads of stuff and it won't cost me more than 20 bucks. LUUUUUUURVE

I think I tried to be selective in my buys (AHEM. I TRIED) but still ended up buying some useless curtains cuz I realised that they don't really fit my windows.... oh well time to go online to search for ways to recycle curtains *_*

I'm still pretty determined to revamp my room even though I have math and all that -____- Sighs IM1 you've become the bane of my life. WHY WAS I SICK. WHY.
 )':

Anyway, thanks to everyone who'd reassured me that things will be alright, and it's not that easy to screw IM1.. :))  hahaha while I feel slightly better now, I better not be complacent. Le Sighs.


Oh. I strode into class at 8.20am today and it was quite an amusing moment for me. Yes, really.


Graduation on Friday! Not particularly hyped/excited about it, and I honestly don't like ceremonies/bowing/formal blah blah so I shall just look forward to the dinner reception afterwards~

Pictures in the next post, hopefully! xx

High stakes

So my mood has plunged about a million floors since yesterday.

It's probably useless to think about anything else now, and even more useless to be saying, "IF I had taken that, IF I hadn't fallen sick, IF.."

This IF rubbish is. Just rubbish.

Now I'll probably only be a little less worried around mid-Dec, when it's over.
I still can't help but think, IF I hadn't been sick on that day, and had taken that paper, I would've been free by now.

And like I said, it's useless saying that now.

Right now I think it's much more constructive to be preparing for it, and hope for the best.

xx

lethargic | restless | annoyed

Once again, I'm bored out of my damn mind. So here I am. *waves*

I just looked at the post-exam schedule again. Properly, this time round. And I realised how totally unappetizing it looked *_* Seriously??!! I actually don't mind chinese lessons every single day since, well, chinese has always been slack time since last year. But what's with all the other crap -_______- Le Sighs. I'm pissed off.

I'd actually typed a whole chunk of stuff about Being Pissed Off (with another issue), but I've deleted everything. Don't want to ruin this nice space with unhappy stuff ^_^

Oh. Just saw something. And I just want to say that no matter how hard you try to dress up/look like someone/behave like someone, at the end of the day, you are still you. Don't try to change that.

I desperately need to get out of here, it's boiling

fooooooooooood

Hiya guys~ How's your weekend going~

Life is great ^_^ Been slacking around/dying in between doing higher chinese tys (too boring & totally not exciting as compared to school papers -_-)/doing weird moves randomly at home to express the degree of boredom I was suffering from/feeling relieved from all the drama last week/feeling sudden bursts of gratitude these 2 days! :)

Okaii some pictures from today's lunch/tea at the new HK cafe in cwp ^_^ Finally I feel like I'm living a life. LOL. Good food, nice music, plush cushion chairs and all.

Some salty lemon 7up thing that tasted like it dropped from heaven ^_^ No kidding. NO KIDDING.

Crazily yummy ice-cream waffle! With small amounts of peanut butter woven in the waffle B) So it wasn't too sweet/fattening or anything!

CURRY SOUP IN A BREAD BOWL!!!!!!! <3333 Best part was the bread bowl could be eaten. Hahaha. SO SHIOK

I had ingested soooo much carbs in one sitting but it was all worth it. Hehe. Food is loveeeeeee


I'm ending off my post with the epitome of cute-- SOME RANDOM BUT VERY VERY VERY CUTE DOLL I FOUND! It's probably ancient though haha but it's so adorbzz

Till then! xoxo

From the bottom of my heart

Hello guys~ How do you like my new blog! Lol. You've shifted places AGAIN, I hear you say. Yep. Even though I tried to stay on with wordpress it was pretty hard to be satisfied with the layouts and stuff. So. It's blogger once again ^_^

I had so much fun doing up this blog though~~ It's likely that I'll be blogging here for a very, very long time!!!!!!!!!

I'm currently feeling very very very bored.

I shall start with my week.


This week has been short (only 3 days of school) but I feel like I'd gone through so, so, so much. And had become so frail at one point that I couldn't eat anything, just felt like I wouldn't care even if the world were to end like, right then. Wasted tears as and when I wanted. Was so worried I couldn't sleep well. Jumped up at the first ring of the alarm. Had pimples popping up everywhere for the first time in MONTHS. Felt like I'd aged 40 years in just 3 days. Felt like I could collapse and die, and no one would care and I'd be happy.

BUT THOSE TERRIBLE FEELINGS ONLY LASTED FOR ABOUT 2 AND A HALF DAYS.

That's the great thing. And after that I suddenly felt like I could stomach every kind of food in the world, could sing and dance and laugh and cry all day long, could fight any kind of tough battle for the next 2 years.

I felt thankful. Gratitude pouring out, everywhere. For the first time in a long time, I felt thankful to be alive. Breathing air, breathing gratitude. I felt so thankful for everyone who'd been truly concerned about me. Those who had been there when I was at the most miserable point of my life, those who had been sincere about comforting me & even offered to help, thank you. From the bottom of my heart.

Like B said, it's good to be thankful :)


The worst is probably over. I should've kept the faith that my hard work will pay off, no matter what. I shouldn't have scared myself silly and gone through all that unnecessary paranoia. I actually thought I was going to end up in some loony bin, lol.


OKAY! Enough of sad stuff. Life is beautiful, and will always be.


Now that I know things will be alright, I'm actually getting excited about next year! I know that even more of my time will go to mugging, mugging and more mugging, but I'm just kinda glad with the change in environment & stuff ^_^  I don't really care about the stuff about "stepping out of my comfort zone". This place has never been my comfort zone anyway. At least not for these 2 years.

It still feels surreal that I'm graduating in just a week's time :O Time to celebrate? Haha.


Ending off with a picture from Beijing last year! I miss that place :'( The skies were a beautiful icy blue~

xoxo