From the bottom of my heart

Hello guys~ How do you like my new blog! Lol. You've shifted places AGAIN, I hear you say. Yep. Even though I tried to stay on with wordpress it was pretty hard to be satisfied with the layouts and stuff. So. It's blogger once again ^_^

I had so much fun doing up this blog though~~ It's likely that I'll be blogging here for a very, very long time!!!!!!!!!

I'm currently feeling very very very bored.

I shall start with my week.


This week has been short (only 3 days of school) but I feel like I'd gone through so, so, so much. And had become so frail at one point that I couldn't eat anything, just felt like I wouldn't care even if the world were to end like, right then. Wasted tears as and when I wanted. Was so worried I couldn't sleep well. Jumped up at the first ring of the alarm. Had pimples popping up everywhere for the first time in MONTHS. Felt like I'd aged 40 years in just 3 days. Felt like I could collapse and die, and no one would care and I'd be happy.

BUT THOSE TERRIBLE FEELINGS ONLY LASTED FOR ABOUT 2 AND A HALF DAYS.

That's the great thing. And after that I suddenly felt like I could stomach every kind of food in the world, could sing and dance and laugh and cry all day long, could fight any kind of tough battle for the next 2 years.

I felt thankful. Gratitude pouring out, everywhere. For the first time in a long time, I felt thankful to be alive. Breathing air, breathing gratitude. I felt so thankful for everyone who'd been truly concerned about me. Those who had been there when I was at the most miserable point of my life, those who had been sincere about comforting me & even offered to help, thank you. From the bottom of my heart.

Like B said, it's good to be thankful :)


The worst is probably over. I should've kept the faith that my hard work will pay off, no matter what. I shouldn't have scared myself silly and gone through all that unnecessary paranoia. I actually thought I was going to end up in some loony bin, lol.


OKAY! Enough of sad stuff. Life is beautiful, and will always be.


Now that I know things will be alright, I'm actually getting excited about next year! I know that even more of my time will go to mugging, mugging and more mugging, but I'm just kinda glad with the change in environment & stuff ^_^  I don't really care about the stuff about "stepping out of my comfort zone". This place has never been my comfort zone anyway. At least not for these 2 years.

It still feels surreal that I'm graduating in just a week's time :O Time to celebrate? Haha.


Ending off with a picture from Beijing last year! I miss that place :'( The skies were a beautiful icy blue~

xoxo