HAVE A MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS

Was scrolling through my old posts (AGAIN), because I was just done with changing the background (basically I changed the colour. Now it is a very pale, toned-down kinda pink. What do you call it? Anyway, it is kind of nice to look at. ) & I realised that I did some sort of reflection post last year today?? Lol. Okay I shall make an attempt at that right now since I'm really bored

How do I begin-

(referring to that old post for a clue)

So I talked about new beginnings, Another Chance, ....

I don't know.. this year has been a whirlwind of firsts, emotions, trying, working hard (at least attempts that I think were pretty decent OKAY)

"我们都曾为某个人努力过"

"等一个固执的如果"

sorry, random lyrics popping up everywhere

"Things happen for a reason" -wise ol' B

"Not your loss"

I just want to say a big THANK YOU to all who were there for me all along... y'know. Just showing that you care, even though I know all the while I've been too preoccupied with my own affairs to be concerned about anything else- I'm so sorry, you guys mean more than the world to me. Again feeling so guilty that you guys have always been the ones making the effort to keep in contact, to check on me, ask how I'm doing- while I was lost in my own (meaningless) pursuits, my head up in the clouds for something(one) that(who) probably will not matter 10 years down the road  tomorrow :)

And in the most twisted way, I think what I've just gone through has done me much good
In fact I feel pretty invincible now (LOL)
"老娘啥没做过？？！”-wise ol' B
Perhaps worry about awkwardness next year or something. But hey, things can't get any more awkward right????

Will get myself to read your messages, word by word, sometime. If I can read them without cringing, I'M ALL GOOD :)
may sting from time to time but
what is a little pain gon' do

"but life was so simple then"-R

I can only say that I missed the simplicity dearly. What I would do to recover those lost times



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I'm aware that I just typed a super random, super messy, super disorganized post
I'm so sorry ahahaha
but I'm really alright

(this is taking less time than I thought. yay)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY