If I were to be completely honest with myself I admit that I had never felt compelled to put in much of an effort to know you better. And if you ask me why, I'd say it's probably because I'd imagined a barrier between us that can never be broken down no matter how hard either of us tried; something to do with, perhaps, the perfection I see in you; how I will never have the motivation to seek that kind of perfection, and hence will have no business whatsoever with anyone with that level of perfection.

What kind of warped logic is that? Today I want to say that I'm very sorry. I hope there's still time to change things.