Perhaps in your eyes I don't even deserve that bit of encouragement. So much so that you couldn't even be bothered to hide how glad you are about being relieved of the burden of throwing in words that you probably never meant to say 

I'm so done with all this crap, glad that THE DAY is finally coming. No more endless bus rides, cursing under my breath on stupid trains that look like  they will break down any time. No more worrying about being late and getting the damn card confiscated. No more naivety on my part about things that will never, ever, happen. Not in a gazillion years.  

On the way to finding some life, finally. Realising dreams and nursing the trampled soul back to health